Rebuilding the "WANT" mammoth:
Produced in full secret as a surprise track to be premiered only at the Recoil ASHIB Screening Event in Guimarães, 23.11.12.
Both Alan Wilder and the audience didn't knew what was coming their way as the closing track from my warmup live set.
This special version for one of Recoil's most pivotal tracks builds around virtually recorded telephone calls from some of Alan's closest entourage including (in order of appearance):
Mauricio Moriarty, Maira Oliva, Christine Thomsi Thomsen, Thomas Köckeis, Tatjana Glück, Kellie Andrews, myself and Rhianna Faye.
They all could chose one part of the text, but the general idea was each would have to say "and I want" on their native language.
Having so much people close to Alan keeping their mouths shut until this piece was played for the very first time was no easy task - but we've achieved it somehow:)
Rhianna Faye had the extra responsibility of being the new Nicole Blackman (all due respect), but I believe you will all agree she's done the job perfectly - let me just say her recording was a one take only file - wow!
This was originally meant NEVER to be repeated again.
Thank you all, specially Alan!
I want to know how it'll end
I want to be sure of what it'll cost
I want to strangle the stars for all they promised me
I want you to call me on your drug phone
I want to keep you alive so there is always the possibility of murder later
I want to be there when you learn the cost of desire
I want you to understand that my malevolence is just a way to win
I want the name of the ruiner
I want matches in case I have to suddenly burn
I want you to know that being kind is overrated
I want to write my secret across your sky
I want to watch you lose control
I want to watch you lose
I want to know exactly what it's going to take
I want to see you insert yourself into glory
I want your touches to scar me so I'll know where you've been
I want you to watch when I go down in flames
I want a list of atrocities done in your name
I want to reach my hand into the dark and feel what reaches back
I want to remember when my nightmares were clearer
I want to be there when your hot black rage rips wide open
I want to taste my own kind
I want to be wrapped in cold wet sheets to see if it's different on this side
I want you to come on strong
I want to leave you out in the cold
I want the exact same thing... but different
I want some soft drugs.. some soft, soft drugs
I want to throw you
I want you to know I know
I want to know if you read me
I want to swing with my eyes shut and see what I hit
I want to know just how much you hate me so I can predict what you'll do
I want you to know the wounds are self-inflicted
I want a controlling interest
I want to be somewhere beautiful when I die
I want to be your secret hater
I want to stop destroying you but I can't
And I want and I want and I want
And I will always be hungry
And I want and I want
And I want...
from WANT : Rebuilt (Bandcamp Edition)
released December 22, 2012
(A Wilder / N Blackman)
Published by: Mute Song Ltd / Copyright Control.
Mix Production & programming by AlexFX for Underdub Music.
Voices (in order of appearance):
- Mauricio Moriarty (Mexico)
- Maira Oliva (Panama)
- Christine Thomsi Thomsen (Germany)
- Thomas Köckeis (Austria)
- Tatjana Glück (Siberia)
- Kellie Andrews (UK)
- Alex Fernandes (Portugal)
- Rhianna Faye (USA)
Answering Machine and Disclaimer voices are done with TextEdit (and speech) software
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